Who am I ?

Who am I ?

Who am I ?

That the Lord of all the earth…

Would care to know my name…

Who am I ?

That the Bright and Morning Star…

Would choose to light the way…

For my ever wandering heart…

Not because of who I am…

But because of what You’ve done…

Not because of what I’ve done…

But because of who you are…

These words written by Casting Crowns are the words that I sung moments after I trusted in YHWH God and His only begotten Son, Y’shua (Jesus) for the first time. After confessing my need of YHWH’s forgiveness, His son, and His work in me to repent of my sinful ways, I experienced His grace, His joy, His peace, and the knowledge that my sins were forgiven and the penalty for my sins were paid when Y’shua the Messiah died in my place. This happened in November of 2009.

I entitled this article Who am I? But it could very well be called: From Brokeness to Salvation, From Salvation to Torah Pursance

My name is Michael Compton. I have 2 beautiful daughters (Ellay Sophia and Veda Le’Anna) and 1 beautiful wife (Katrina Corrinne). I am a child of Yahweh, a husband, a father, a son, a cousin, a nephew, an uncle, a medical worker, a writer, and an evangelist. My passion is to spend time with my family and friends and to share the testimony of Yeshua and the Torah with the world. This is the long story short version of me. Now to rewind and then to fast forward.

I grew up a happy child in a home that rarely went to church or talked about God. At the age of 12 my mother and father were divorced and I no longer was the happy child I once was. I began rebelling against all authority. My mother was remarried shortly after the divorce. We still rarely spoke of God or went to church. I began sneaking out of the house at 14 and lost my virginity shortly afterward. At 16 I began drinking and smoking marijuana. That lead to experimenting with just about every drug that I could get my hands on. While this was occurring my mother and step-father, whom I was living with at the time, were on the verge of divorce. There were many chaotic nights in our broken household. I ended up getting involved with other like minded people who had no respect for authority. I was caught stealing, arrested several times, and was put on supervision. At 19 I felt compelled to join the military to start a new. After joining the Army Reserve and completing basic training and job training, I moved back home.  At 22 I knew I needed a change. I decided to join the Active duty Army. I continued to smoke marijuana and drink. At 24 I was worked at an Army medical facility in San Antonio . My boss was said to be a newly converted Christian. This sparked an interest in me, as I quite frequently discussed religious topics. For some odd reason I asked him if he thought it was wrong for me to drink alcohol. I will never forget his response. He asked why his opinion mattered to me. I told him I was curious and he then said that it didn’t matter much being I didn’t serve God. I felt completely disrespected! Who did he think he was, I thought. I asked him why he thought that I didn’t serve God. He said that my lifestyle was the evidence. For a few days my thoughts raced. I was a porn addict, drug addict, a compulsive liar. I knew that I needed to be honest with myself and find out if I personally believed in God. So I asked, “Do I believe in God?” The moment after that question darkness flooded into my mind. I knew I was lost. I knew I didn’t know God personally. Shortly after this moment I was on my knees believing that Y’shua died for my sin debt. I believed that if God loved me that much, that He was not only able, not only wanted to, but would fill me with His Spirit in such a way that would change my heart to love Him. The moment I confessed my sin and trusted Him was the moment I passed from the kingdom of darkness to the kingdom of Y’shua [Col. 1:13]. And I knew it! I cried, I jumped up and down, and I couldn’t stop smiling. I wanted to tell everyone. And everyone I knew I did tell! From that point one my hunger for truth only grew. Everyday I prayed, I read God’s word, and told people the good news that they could know God through trusting in His son! Two years later, I experienced yet another paradigm shift. 

About a year and a half ago my wife and I were invited to have dinner at one of her high school friend’s house. Her Sister in law prepared a wonderful meal for us. I found out that her brother had recently started a ministry.  Being the Bible student I was, I was interested to know what his ministry was all about. I was all ears as he began to tell me that after months and months of studies he came to the conclusion that we have been missing out on a great deal of truth in the church today, including the feast days, dietary instructions, tassels, as well as the Sabbath. He told me that he believes that the Bible teaches us that the Torah is for all believers [Exodus 12:49, Leviticus 24:22, Numbers 15:16].  He explained to me the mystery of the gospel, a mystery that has been forgotten or not properly understood by the majority of Bible believers today. We talked about many different interrelated subjects and I was anxious to learn more. He gave me some resources to review and some questions to ponder on. As I contemplated the possible answers to these questions and looked for their answers in the Scriptures, I was faced with many more difficult questions. However, after reviewing one of the resources I was given, I became convinced that the Bible teaches that all believers in Y’shua have been grafted into Israel [Rom. 11:24, Eph.2:12]. This answered many of my questions. In fact, it was quite easy for me to understand this identity crisis, being I found that dispensationalism (the belief that Israel and the Church are totally separate entities) didn’t fit with much of what I read in the Scriptures. However, though many of the questions had received answers, after accepting this truth I still had some doubts as to if the Torah was still for believers in Messiah today.

I began asking the man who introduced me to this study question after question as he graciously helped me see the scriptures in their historical backdrop and context. He didn’t give me much of his opinion, but rather read the scriptures with me and asked me questions. There were some verses that the Apostle Paul penned that I still couldn’t understand. On one hand, everything I was testing to the Scriptures made much sense, however, Galatians, and several passages in Romans, Ephesians, 1st and 2nd Corinthians, Hebrews, and Colossians bothered me (Peter did say s Paul was hard to understand in 2 Peter 3:16). As I was studying it seemed on one hand Paul was saying, “I believe in the Torah and follow it” and on the other hand it was as if he was saying, “its perfectly fine for gentiles not to (which would contradict Torah, because it says that even the non-native born Israelite is to follow Yahweh’s instructions). Was Paul contradicting himself I wondered? I wasn’t satisfied with not knowing. I continued to ask many questions to many people. I was told by many to stop what I was doing. One friend said that they couldn’t do ministry with me if I believed that the Torah of God is for the disciples of Jesus today.Another friend of mine said that they didn’t know if they could be friends with someone that believed in the Torah. One family member told me he would have nothing to do with me if I accepted the Torah as relevant in my life. Not many wanted to discuss this with me in too much detail, however, I was told to read Hebrews and Galatians and I did. After reading these books, I decided that my friends were right. After reading these books and some commentaries on them, I thought, “we were no longer under the law and if we were to go back to it we would be falling from grace.” I was scared to even dare obey some of God’s laws found in the Hebrew Scriptures ( TANAK / Old Testament). I didn’t’ want to fall from grace! I was in fact scared for this man who introduced me to the study and I even questioned his salvation. I informed him that I believed that the Torah wasn’t for us today and in fact told him that I was scared that he might have fallen from grace. He heard me out and asked me some questions. I couldn’t answer many of them. I was convicted to study more. However, I just didn’t want to. I was alright with not knowing how to answer his questions. I was fine with my Christianity. However, after some time I started feeling overwhelmingly convicted. I couldn’t do anything but read the verses that I believed proved my friend wrong. I ordered books to support the position I wanted to cling to. I wanted to believe what I believed. Months passed and I still felt that there was something was missing.

One day I received an email and in the email was a proposed question. The question was, did Jesus preach the gospel? I couldn’t help but click on it to see what the answer would be to the question. After I watched the video I was quite perplexed. The man that presented the question and then answered it was not in agreement with the Torah’s relevance in our lives I assumed; however, he said some things that made me question myself. I was compelled to post this video on my friend’s page, the one who introduced me to the supposed relevance of the Torah. He replied with a video. It was one of the teachings I received months back that convinced me of the “supposed” identity crisis the church is facing. I decided I would check it out again. This time I wasn’t going to stop until I proved this teaching false as well as the Torah’s relevance in my life or accept it and obey it.

I truly wanted to know. I was seeking after the truth. That’s all I wanted. After months of studying, asking people of different perspectives what they thought of the matter, including pastors, professors, and anyone who would listen, after testing all of their responses to the Scriptures, after asking the man that introduced me to this study hundreds of questions, quite literally, I was just about convinced.

After a few more months of intense study I came to the conclusion that the Torah is for believers today [Matt. 5:17-19, Matt 23:1-3, Matt. 28:19, 2 Tim 3:16, Psalm 119, etc]. I understood that it meant that I had been wrong.  But, I found out that it doesn’t matter if I ever have all my theology altogether. What matters is obedience to my Creator [Eccl. 12:13]. So there you have it. My story from brokenness to salvation, from salvation to Torah pursuance.

I pray that this has blessed you. If you want to know more about me or have any questions that I may be able to help with please contact me at KingdomofLightMinistries@yahoo.com

May you, by the grace of God and His Spirit receive the truth of His word, that you may know him and see what marvelous things that are in His Torah [Psalm 119:18], shalom.

Michael Compton [Kingdom of Light Ministries / 2013]Image

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